i'm so happy i didn't kill myself

I'm so happy I didn't kill myself
I'm so sad that I still don't believe in myself
Oh the better times have passed and
All I'm left with is some crap I can't handle
I just gamble
Through, through, through
Oh I don't know what I will do
If this goes on for a month or two
Might go on a longer trip
Never come back and I'ma just dip
Into nothing
Hell or heaven, choose
I wanna be nothing
I wanna be nothing
I wanna feel something
I wanna be nothing
Oh might go down on the devil
I heard she likes girls and she's a flirt
She's so hot though
How could I not go
Maybe I'll get a better bed
I hate my roommate he's been dead for a while now
Like, just wake up?
Mmh, yeah like that
Tell me I'm stupid, call me fat
Mommy issues, get me tissues
Nah
I'm good
I'm a princess from the hood
I wanna be nothing
I wanna be nothing
I wanna feel something
I wanna be nothing
I wanna be nothing
I wanna feel something