A Father

[Verse 1]
Orange with a black outcome
The night i decided to end my own life
Were decided behind closed curtains
By enemies in my own head saying i'd never learn
I wanted to drink that orange poison
To kill my physical form
Cause i am already dead on the inside
The mind and the body has to be alive
In order for me or anyone to be satisfied
And healthy

[Chorus]
You screamed at the top of your lungs
The tests came positive
I was turning into something i have never known
A person, a figure for someone so pure
A rolemodel for someone to become something

[Verse 2]
At the time i screamed and cried
I wanted it so bad and didn't want to die
Is this a sign that something will happen?
I woke up from the blissfull nightmare
I wanted to die
But now