Tempted

Sitting in my room and its late at night.
Looking up to God and I ask him why.

Conversing with demons
They tell me I'm nothing without them
That pain is the power.

Im showered with thoughts of me failing
cnd falling to pieces.
Im disappointed
By my drive to get rid of them.

I just let them soak in through my skin
Its been a problem to me
For what seems like forever and ever.

Endeavor to strive to be better
Im weak in my knees
cnd I'm asking to please
Just get rid of my suffering
Innocence crumbling,

Died in my arms
I don't think I will let it go.
Wishing that
I could have done something more

To preserve all the peace
But my faith is deceased.
cnd I lecture myself
With the promises broken and covenants choking.

I don't know myself.

Im under the pressure
Depression imprinted on me
Since the day that I caved in to sorrow.

Tomorrows the same
It rewinds and repeats.
cnd my structure depletes
Into nothing but torment.

My strength has been dormant
Informal for heaven.
cnd ready for hell

I'm projecting the light
But feel darker than ever.

cnd Social media the devil's scripture
Has been pushing its way to the surface.
cnd shoved in my face.
cnd I can't seem to push it away

I've been stuck in the same place
cnd haven't moved forward
Toward all the goals that I set myself
cnd I'm worried I bit off more than I can chew.

cnd it's all unreachable or unrealistic
Or it's never gonna be enough
cnd I'm just waiting to reset
To where I always have been and end up

Drowning in sin.

Im Tempted.
Im Tempted.
Im Tempted
To do something wrong.

Im Tempted.
Oh yeah I'm Tempted.
Im Tempted.
To do something wrong.

I shatter ambition
Of ever going back
Through all of my thoughts
Like I traded my heart.

It's hard to restart
When I question my motives
cnd drown in my doubts
When I'm breaking apart.

I'm still wondering
One day if I can be cleaner.
My hands on the plow
cnd I'll never look back.

Cuz I wanna be fit
For the kingdom of God
Feel like such a facade
Im a fraud I'm so flawed.

But I'm doing my best
cnd it's all I can do,
But it's never enough,
When the going gets tough,

I don't wanna even try.
I blame and justify
My actions for devils
I'm making excuses.

I'm wondering
When did I lose it?
I pack up my baggage
cnd strap it right onto the ceiling

cnd let it hang loose
Then I use it as my noose
I'm waiting for the truce
So I can find the truth.

To bury my thoughts
In the back of my head
That way no one can see them.

My Demons still want me
I try to release em.
They grab and they tear at my brain
Till I please them.

I'll never defeat them.
I pray and I pay
But I'm always the prey.
I'm astray from the path
I might never look back.

I'm still wanted from Father
I've never been farther.
cnd sense my departure
It's only been darker.

So when it's my turned to be judged
I won't lie.
I did all that I could
But I still lost the fight.

I still love my Savior
But can't find the light.
cnd if he still loves me
I'm lost in the night.

Im still worried
I'll never get passed this.
When time is the fastest
That's when I get fearful.

I'm closer to telling my Father
That I'll never see him.
Or stay up in Heaven
He'll never look back.

Im Tempted.
Im Tempted.
Im Tempted.
To do something wrong.

Im Tempted.
Oh yeah Im Tempted.
Im Tempted.
To do something wrong.