​are you my sister

I hope one day you'll forgive me
I'm so disgusted by the way I treated you
And all this angst and practiced whimsy
Doesn't change the fact that you're a person too

I wanna say what happened
Was the end result of being sick and scared
But that isn't fair
I'd be lying if I told you I just tried my best
'Cause that's a fucking dirty lie
I dug a hole and pushed you in and left you there

I'm sorry
I fucked up
I killed all of your trust
I'm sorry
I'm weak
And scared
And you don't owe me anything

It's true that I still miss you
It's true that I can never say I've changed
Without being vain
And if you ever hear this
I just hope that you're still dreaming
Oh there's nothing I can say to make it better
I just hope that you're okay

I'm sorry
For this

I need to feel this
There is nothing left to do
There is nothing left to say
Except:
I miss you

I'm sorry
I fucked up
I killed all of your trust
I'm sorry
I'm weak
And scared
And you don't owe me anything