CURSE (for Devi)

I tried so hard to play it cool
Inside so helpless and confused
When I'm around you I feel new
I hope this isn't too soon
But I'm fucking crazy about you

I want to know your thoughts
I want to know your touch
I want to know your every secret wish
I want to know too much about you

I feel the distance between us
Melting away
I know we're both so afraid
I know you say that there's a curse on you
But I've got one too
That's how I found you

I can't believe you're here with me
I want you so bad I can't breathe
I feel so stupid and weak
You bring out something in me
I had no idea this could be real

I want to know your thoughts
I want to feel your touch
I want to know your fucked up fantasies
I want to know too much
I want to give you evеrything
You mean so much to me
You make mе feel like I'm not sick
Like nothing ever happened to me

I know you think
That you don't deserve to be protected
All I want to do is care for you
And give you what you need
I just want to keep you safe
After all we've been through
It's never enough
I think I'm in love with you

Oh god I've never felt so understood
I feel like it's dangerous to feel this good
I'm gone I'm fucking dying next to you
Do you feel it too?