Complicated

I tried to let go
But I know, that's not how this goes
To feel this so high
I tried to tell myself from the start
The person you hide
That I know, is still there inside
All of this space I gave
I’m all over the place
Smile on your face
Walking to the bar
Letting what you drink
Control the person you are
Suffocating, all alone
It's drowning me
A darker side that you won't ever see
Why didn’t you tell me
This would've been expected
But I put the blame on me
I know, it's complicated

Changed my own lifе in one movement
Didn't know I needеd such improvement
But I learnt to grow all on my own
Found it easier without my emotions shown
Still love and thank you for everything you were
I know i'll never be as good as her
I have to look at things from the other side
And just ignore how I feel inside
It's not your fault, you couldn't help it
When you took my heart and broke it
I'm soft inside it’s not hard to do
You didn’t love me but I always loved you
And when you hear this and ask if i'm okay
I look in the mirror and ask myself everyday
I hate my life here, and I hate this place
Think i’d be better off in outer space

Please take me
Away from here
I don't know who I am when you're not near
There's so much that I won’t tell you
And that's not on you
But there's one thing that I will tell you...