Problems
I dont have alot of time cause i got work later
U prolly already know your no longer being catered
Isay the same thing to these women however nothings changing
Usually i want u to take responsibility instead of hate me
Been thru this like practice
Im getting my ass kicked till come up from the darkness now im getting my ass kissed
Funny thing is im not mad bout this whack shit u cheated on me thats an everyday struggle
No academics
Gotta stay fly
My future confusin so i focus jus to stay alive i cant cry to fake lives thats ye high
I told you all this.
The bold resolve of life savin the dream of rapper never seein me their eyes asian but u fakin
And the day that i read those text messages is the day where i said fuck a good man
Im doin better shit akil thats livin fantasy thinkin
That this world can be fought with a change of mindset
Album and a couple rhymes butit aint stop u from cheating
From me repeating the grieving feeling of loneliness deep in my living being
Ive been up every god damn night
Spitting flames from my heart into this god damn mic
And everytime we got deep into a god damn fight
I made u smile jus lookin in yo god damn eyes
And now i hide sayin nobody can find davinci weakness in this
Way im livin way i give women another way in
Thinkin she great i jus chose another cycle of hate and
Thinkin im doin good ik this girl jus needed savin
My biological father stay callin drunk i block him
Complainin bout his life but he aint ask about my problems
Got a few dollars now so im skeptical
Whether i should
Accomplish in music
Or b come a new student plus my uncle called
After the whole drunk dad fiasco
I ignored him and told unc im out here doin mad shows
But im conflicted
My mom once again drinkin u hear this sever lisp
When shes sippin im getting pissed cause she did everything
I keep thinkin if theres a better way to do wat i love and make money ive sat down to meditate
I dont care bout the billionth bitch
Again we go our seperate ways i care about my family and how mother can be repayed
She says shell kick me out if she dont see no progress made
I told her i love rappin but yes now im havin doubts inside my brain
Im young i feel like forty wtfs that about
It dont even feel good wit this lil bit of clout
And now
Tbh im lil numb to the pain
Im used to bein left out and to pave my own lane
From my brother to my father to my uncle to my sister
To my cousins to the bitches that be twisted that dun
Stabbed me in the back
That dun took my heart and ripped it
That dun cheated on a nigga
That ain't appreciate when i did shit
That left cause all she wanted was this dick her parents racist
Or that dun made my love deep when i knew she had a boyfriend
These obstacles i do follow till da mind is somewhere tropical
Makin me regret livin im sick like two hospitals
When its cold outside who u holdin
My heart broken nah i jus never picked up the pieces to fix the old one
Now im stuck in motion
Hopin my cousin will recover from the rape and helpin my mother stay sober
I hate that my life is painful
I hate that im so hateful
Im stressin whats gone happen when out here getting more follows when i rock flows
Idk
Who does
Who dont?
Who related
No coppin out all these problems
Nah
As for rappin
I cant stop tho this loop im so locked thru cause now everyone thinks bein a lyricist is whack ohhhh
Hold on I get it
Everybody else can get lit
Except when i spit
They cant believe it when i say my mic is in my closet
But yall dont promote shit u fake u still think im still garbage?
Im in a group chat full of niggas sayin they support me
But be the last mfs to spread the word on my work and
I fucked my mans bitch, the boyfriend, u think i said that line to flex?
She still showin me to everyone more than niggas i knew for four years im jus
Tryin to see what my purpose is cause
I wanna believe in the words i spit
Questionin if this worth it when all i want is to make momma rich
And all i want is pops to see i made this life without him here
Mockin this
Awful shit
Wantin these
Artist to see all my shit but god for bid
I ask another rapper if i can feature see
U scared imma get clout because u know your not as good as me
Sometimes i jus wanna make some musics dont complicate things
Im tryin to do what i love to do a niggas only 18 damn
Sometimes i want a actual fan that doesnt wanna rap with me
Sometimes i dont want someone that wants a favor to ask of me
Sometimes i wanna fuck around and rap over an average beat or not be underestimated
Cause im rappin as another black g
And there he goes with that black thing
Its some real shit i wont stop it i dont give a fuck if u do not like it
Im writin my life and say it on da mic but im gettin continuous hate u jus use a nigga
Everyday u want me to be a foolish nigga
Or the newest villain
Or the coon thats spittin
Or the stupid nigger
That i knew i was back in middle school
But now im livin it different and pivotal
U hatin cause akil at a higher grade
Or a Higher state
Gotta be way hotter than a fire place
I gotta kill the game and never ride the wave and this for everyone
Thats wit me all the way i git a taste of fame
But now i want the meal i do it on my own so nigga fuck a deal
I gotta make it real i cant be hidin nothing even tho im lookin like
Im actin cooler or be actin normal that be every person
Cause we all live lookin like we All have no problems