Ambivalence

Restart, rewind
Take me back to a better time
Bearing the weight of the world
I feel the pressure until I meltdown

Until I meltdown

Brain turbulence takes it's toll
So many shards of jarring thoughts
And you know I just don't want to be alone
(I just don't want to be alone)

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I keep blaming myself until I meltdown

A never ending glow
Of white noise and you know
I'm deaf to the sound and blind to it all
(Static friend or foe, there's no hope anymore)

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I'll keep blaming myself until I meltdown

I know there's something wrong with me
Am I supposed to figure it all out?
Why don't I feel like you?
Why can't I think like you? (Like you)
I keep blaming myself until I meltdown

Restart, rewind until I meltdown
Take me back until I meltdown
Bearing the weight until I meltdown
I feel the pressure until I meltdown

I'll chase the butterfly that made it all this way
Bring me to the light with no words left to say
I'll keep blaming myself until I meltdown

I know there's something wrong with me
Am I supposed to figure it all out?
Why don't I feel like you?
Why can't I think like you?
I keep blaming myself until I meltdown