Never Cared For Life

I think it's crazy that I'll never get
To hear your voice again
But deep down I've always known
This is how you would go
And I used to pray that you would find the strength
To do it on your own
We tried to help you fight
But you headed for the light
You never cared for life
I'll never get it
You had four beautiful kids
You had two brothers and you had a mother and you had some reasons to live
But you never saw it that way
Pop another pill for the pain
Even on the sunniest days
You'd go and search for the rain
I know our childhood yeah we didn't have a lot
Physical abuse that's a battle that you fought
Your favorite excuse but it came with a cost
Yeah, came with a cost
At another's expense I'm on the fence
But I should feel sad
I keep on thinking the way that you left is selfish
It's got me mad
Don't know what else to do
I can't erase the pain
We're just taking it day by day
I think it's crazy that I'll never get
To hear your voice again
But deep down I've always known
This is how you would go
And I used to pray that you would find the strength
To do it on your own
We tried to help you fight
But you headed for the light
You never cared for life
I'll never get it
You had four beautiful kids
Your daughter's the oldest and you never noticed that she deserves better than this
She got depression the same
Doesn't pop pills for the pain
Even on the gloomiest days
She looks for sun in the rain
A normal childhood yeah that's something that they lost
Mental abuse that's a battle that they fought
I know they'll never make the same excuses that you taught
Yeah that you taught
I wanna lie but I'm on the fence yeah now that you're gone
People keep painting a picture that's perfect of you
But they got it wrong
Don't know what else to say
There's nothing we can do
We're stuck here missing you
I think it's crazy that I'll never get
To hear your voice again
But deep down I've always known
This is how you would go
And I used to pray that you would find the strength
To do it on your own
We tried to help you fight
But you headed for the light
You never cared for life