Suicide Doors (feat. Matthew Abbott)
Got me unhinged like a suicide door
Don't know how much more I can endure
Boutta push my petal to the floor
Head up to the pure
Settle to pressure depression pressing to the core
My only opposition is living inside my head
The demons in there really want me dead
Suicidal thoughts, although I'd never do it
Never seemed so fluent
Self harm never made sense till they started telling me to do it
Do it
Wasn't even sixteen
So young with big dreams
But I keep thinking the same old things
It's a real dark place
Real dark path
Go too far down, boy you might not last
Circling my past
Kicking my own ass
These intrusive thoughts, boy
Just won't pass
So I stay cooped up
Never gather group up
I've been out the loop
Lost beat from medulla
Red eyes like Medusa
Petrified, paralyzed, can't drive
Stoned out my damn mind
Blinded by the moon light
Dark room so I can't see myself shine
But I'm not calling hot lines
911 for the crash on the road side
Imma keep going til I roll mine
Til I roll mine
Til I roll mine
Keep going and I'm flowing towards the co-sign
Six oh three boy kick them to the coastline
Trash boy I just throw them to the roadside
Hit my girl and she tell me that it's go time
Now she begging one time for the dos time
I told her she can do it on her own time
Okay, one time for the old times
Me myself and I got each other through everything
Why God always gotta be testing me
The more I give my people I'm feeling less of me
This my destiny
If you want your word spread you better start blessing me
Cruising down ninety-three
Everybody eyeing me
Gospel irony
Put me in business with I and me
You too pussy, siamese
I don't got time for you
I don't got vibes for you
I can kick rocks for you
I'm the ayatollah
Couple runaways short of Jonah
Couple neck pieces shy of polar
If I don't crash this shit before I roll up
Would you even care
Were you even there when I was asking for prayer
You are why Yah is not here
Tired of this cross that I bare
So tired of this cross that I bare
Tired of this cross that I bare
Shit, let me throw this bitch in tenth gear