Numbers

[Verse 1]
It's not what I thought it would feel like
The praise that's seeping in
It goes as quick as it comes
Like it's carried by some strong wind
And I know what it seems like
That I'm thinking on leaving again

[Verse 2]
Well, maybe I'm just a little shallow
And if it's true that still waters run deep
Well, then I've been swiftly moving
Can the others see right through me?
My masquerades and my illusions
That I crafted so carefully
Well, I'm just a broken illusion
I'm not as tough as I oughta be

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 3]
Well, the flowers my mama bought me
They only keep for two weeks
And then they just become another reminder
That he's never gonna write to me
And I spoke my fears to my mother
She said, "Honey, just let it be"
And then she sent some pretty flowers
With the hopes that my hurtin' they would ease

[Verse 4]
Well, you would think that I should feel happy
But the truth is I feel spent
And the numbers they've been climbing
Just not enough to pay my rent
I didn't used to think much of the numbers
But now they're always racing through my head
And I guess that I grew a little shallow
When I forsook the words that my mama once said

[Instrumental Break]

[Verse 5]
And now my thoughts are slow and twisted
And I can't seem to break them down
Which leaves my words false in meaning
I feel sad when I speak out loud
I thought I was to be a better lover
When I got out of that town
But I'm still no good in lovin'
And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow

[Outro]
Yes, I'm still no good in lovin'
And lovin' only leaves me losin' anyhow