I’mSorryINeverChange

[Intro: Stephen Fry's speech]
Yes, I mean, we-, bipolar dis-
I call this film "The secret life of manic depressive" and
Um, you know, one has to be very straightforward about this
You know, manic depression, bipolar disorder, is a very morbid condition and the doctors here, they will be the first to say, you know, this is not something to take likely, it's something to be diagnosed, it's something, you know, it does cause, when I say morbid, you know, I mean in the medical sense, it causes death
And it causes deeple unhealthy lifestyles
And deep unhappiness for the person inflicted and really hugely for their families and those who love them
And the way I, if I'm often because I've made these film asked by people who are in terrible straits of unhappiness or they love someone who is in terrible unhappiness, they ask how to deal with it
If I could answet that, gosh, how happy that would make me
The closest I can come is to say that the mood is your own personal weather and it's very like the weather
If you go outside and it's raining, it's not you that's made it rain, it has rained and it is real, you can't unthink the rain
You can't say "god, I'll walk it off" and then it'll be sunny
You know, the weather makes up its own mind and the two mistakes are either to deny that it's raining when it clearly is - it's raining! Let's face it!
And the other thing is to say therefore "my life is over, it's raining and the sun will now never come out, that's it"
Because we all know, in terms of the weather, that it can be a damn nuisance when it's raining, but the sun will come out
And it's the same if you're, um, you know, a manic depressive, you have a manic episode, you have a depress, when you're depressed and you think you cannot conceive of such a thing as the future
Life is so black, you cannot imagine a tommorow
Just, everything is just awful, your energy is slow and there's nothing possible in life
It's terrible, it's actually painful, it's bad, it's really bad
It can be for some people it's so bad that they really have to end their lives in some way, they feel it anyway
But the fact is... it will come out
And in the case of a bipolar person it won't just be normal, it'll then go super normal, it will become incredibly sunny and rather tha having no sense of the future you plan for a hundred futures
You are so excited with the possibility of what you can do in this world with your creative power, with your entrepreneurial ideas, your grandiosity knows no bounds, it's an extraordinary feeling, terrible for people around you
But you know, I asked everybody I spoke to if there was a button and they could press the button and they would no longer be, you know, manic depressives, they would no longer have this bipolar disorder, would they press the button, and only about two said "yes", because that manic state is a thing to be treasured