Sink Into The Soil

Looking back on how it began
So young, so naive
Desperate to be like them
Or anyone but me

Craving their validation
For a sense of confirmation
The feeling I needed

It's just a phase
It can't always be this way
Please erase
This fucking pain

One day I'll be fine
It's just temporary
The ache inside my head
I wish I could be numb instead
False promises, false assurance
Where do I go from here?
It's tearing me at the seams

The world is full of colour
But all I see is grey
I long for the tone to change
View the world in a new way

An endless cycle
That I can't break

Maybe it's just my fate

I could've stopped but just let it happen
How could I've known back then?
I should but I'm too scared to try

If things just stay the same
Will I always feel this way?

One day I'll be fine
It's just temporary
The ache inside my head
I wish I could be numb instead
False promises, false assurance
Where do I go from here?
It's tearing me at the seams

Fell down the rabbit hole
Where a grey cloud hung above
I thought I could climb out
Once I was finally loved

The clouds they stayed around
And I kept falling down
And although I'm loved now
I haven't made it out

Clouds turned into rain
I sink into the soil
This is where I'll stay

Fill the hole
Where I lay
Let water flow
And my skin decay

Is this where I'll always be?
Will things ever change for me?
I can't stay here, can I live on in your memory?

What will one more decade change?
What will one more day?
Please give me a reason to stay