Pumpkin Song

[Verse 1]
Seems I wrote November on a paper for today
Just a few months off anyways
Working nights and sleeping in
I don't know what day it is
I'll celebrate when I'm a star
Bring the cups in from my car

[Chorus 1]
I'm stronger now than I before
But I can't keep up anymore
Christmas was a month ago
I don't even want in though [?]
The new year came and went
There's still a pumpkin on my porch
She was here yesterday, she's not here anymore

[Verse 2]
I'm gonna take a day to absorb all the pain
Let myself feel everything
I'll get up tomorrow, be a person who is real
But today I lie down, with myself I've made a deal

[Chorus 2]
I'm stronger now than I before
With every loss I feel it more
Christmas was a month ago
It's hard to tell without the snow
The new year came and went
There's still a pumpkin on my porch
She was here yesterday, she's not here anymore