Sick, Later

I didn't cause too much trouble at sixteen years old
I snuck out and I stole highway signs
Piled 'em up in the hallway up against the wall
Sidewalks, train stations, construction sites
And nobody died, and nobody died

I remember the common room was really cold
And the vending machines and the snow was iced over outside
I drove back, and the bridge had felt way too narrow
Over potholes and through yellow lights
Did I hug you goodbye?
Did I say good night?

And I thought I'd see you again under the glow of a soft light
Without fluorescent days and nights
With no hum, no network TV
The consolation prize: With resigned eyes I still held tight
And with resigned eyes you still held tight
And I'm glad it wasn't like that summer when everybody died
I'm such a guarded guy 'cause I've been hurt too many times

The first time that I took you to the hospital
I was tired and you wanted to die
I drove off, and I couldn't understand at all
Fuck, I didn't even walk you inside
I thought we all wanna die, we all wanna die
And I thought that was fine, I thought that was fine, I thought that was fine

And I'm glad it wasn't like that summer when everybody died
I'm such a guarded guy 'cause I've been hurt too many times