2020

My favorite type of pastime
I want bad things
Sighing at my attachments
My cravings
Bent over in the kitchen
With the one that isn't mine
Don't want to possess them
Palm marks that linger for days

Though at times their voice a saw, lips foreign
The last one, before this one
Chest resonant, embracing
I can hear their heart, every time
Tracing a line through the centre of my body
Stacking myself piece by piece
Into alignment, into alignment

Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life
In my life, my life

Impulses peaking through your hands
The urge is to watch not walk away
Don't walk away from me this time
You told me you want it
You like being on your knees
Put me on a pedestal
Like I do you
Both on our knees for each other
You're my submissive, I'm your submissive
Trading roles
Tonight, I'm not a woman
Tonight, I'm just a body
Tonight, I'm just a body

Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life
Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life, in my life
My life

I am of all things love and hate
Placing the pieces of myself hopefully
Without judgment, without bitterness
To not knowing who I am entirely

Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life?
Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life?
Who am I without them?
Who am I without you in my life?
In my life
Without you in my life
In my life
Without you in my life