Adolescence II

[Intro]
May my loved ones respect me
May my angel protect me
May the Devil neglect me
May the Heavens accept me

You can be anything in this world that you want, except for my downfall
That’s my job. {Laughs}

[Verse]
With friends like these, who needs enemies?
I’m entering an industry, objective is get money to justify evil tendencies
Envious schemes, they probably dream of me under guillotines
If human me is drowning, Bianca and Nay will be his wings
Insomnia stricken, eyes forever stay open
Hallucinating old friends, promises they’ve broken
No rivals to idolize
Less I look in the mirror into my soul, through my idle eyes
Two Byron’s will now collide
And when the mistakes haunt you, face karma, take it all
Some’ll spring to an opportunity, can’t wait to see you fall
F that, I dream to paint that house red, to them I’m a threat
You can bet, like that suit and tie that you’re wearing, I’m at your neck
Yeah, I’m on your head forever
And just because God is blessing me
You must have lost your mind if you think he’s immune to questioning
To some, I seem reckless, to others I give hope
Most didn’t get the message; I’m a little bit of both
The same reason people fail to realize the saints are the sinners
That’s the reason you see heaters out, even though it ain’t winter

[Hook]
Too many people went from here for me to enemies
And even more than them have probably thought of ending me
Even in my darkest days, fans cheer for me
That’s why I’m praying for the day I make it in this industry

Cause Rina told me there’d be days like this
Am I human or a rapper, ain’t no way around this

[Verse]
I’m the youngest of three, was always the one they doubted
Birthing a hunger in me, no need to wonder about it
Reputation built around me by people without a clue
Imagine rapping as a child to have people look down on you
Overlook me as a kid lacking a grasp on reality
But what you’re seeing now is that same kid
No actually, the person you see now is a person without a fear
Dispersing across the Earth, while I work to apply them here
See along the way, I used to hope to uplift the city
But I noticed when success came, people started to envy me
Even with common enemies
One of my greatest fears, the day I’m no longer helpful, but detrimental
As years go by, I grow aware of my family’s apparent split
Divided, lacking knowledge that Byron even exists
I know, my reclusiveness might have pushed you away
Or maybe I ain’t trust you enough not to judge what I say
The usual habitual rudeness you choose to display never once altered my love for you
But you can relate
I often wonder, should I be ashamed my family barely knows me?
Is it me to blame for Tony’s death?
The reason that I hold these memories of pain
Or is it me that holds it all together like glue?
As much I hate to admit it, man, it’s probably true
I have enough pressure with rapping, knowing that you ain’t believe in me
But when I dropped “The Minimum”, boom!
So when I never mention you in a song, and you wonder why?
It’s not because I don’t love you, or hope that you’re satisfied with subliminals
Reality is that my friends carry me
And if I fall from grace, then it’ll be them catching me
It’s all coming back to me, as I look in this mirror
I fear that you take this personal on the day that you hear it
I fear I develop pride as my humbleness disappears
And the love that we had inside, it all dies cause of these lyrics
I fear that we missed out on each other cause of these arguments
I fear that I’m losing myself and that played a part in it
I fear that I miss out on my friends, cause I spazz out about you, then lash out on them
Don’t want a part of it
Maybe if I would talk then these problems would never start again
Maybe I’ll make it worse and I’m better off with you arguing
Maybe my love for you isn’t good enough and it’s causing this
Maybe it’s all for nothing, my adolescence is darkening
Not a saint, just human with flaws that are deep rooted
A martyr to be soon, and that’s all between me and you
Because often, I feel guilty like you don’t know me at all
I’m a mystery, but I’m numb and this mirror just told it all
The resentment and what’s to come if I live this way going forward
No, I won’t ever pretend I’m content or succumb to these feelings
Cementing that you lost me because I’m no longer here
I’m reckless, but still hopeful to know I no longer fear a thing
No I don’t feel a thing
You’ll never feel my pain

[Hook]
My love for you I think will really be the end of me
That I’m alive is something that I won’t pretend to be
My best friends think I’m worrisome and fear for me
An open letter to the people near and dear to me

Cause Rina told me there’d be days like this where I feel I’m going crazy
Ain’t no way around this
Ain’t no way around this...