I’M GOOD, I’M GONE. (DEMO)

[Intro]
You know me well enough to know I'm careless, though I care for you
In hopes you'll be ok the day I perish, let me tell the truth
Yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
Drifting in and out of focus, got a couple deaths left to cope with
Including mine, cause I'm hopeless
Without a single clue of what this hope is
I've been locked away, I've been broken
Lord knows what I've done when my eyes shut, even to people I'm close with
I've been cloaked with depression, so let me approach this the best way I can
As open as possible
Pray, I can't, but some pray I can
And some say I cram syllables in verses
Every day, I trample over obstacles, that's just the way I am
And I could just sit and complain bout how much of my time it took
But if I can move mountains with words only, why the heck would I care how to climb it, look
Time is up
I'm a diamond in the rough, or so they're saying as I'm vomiting my guts
Made friends that I don't even know
Vice versa, hearses on my mind and such
Inner peace is at an all time low
Mentally, you can see that the crime is up
Whips, chains, money, or manilla
You'll see how real it is by the time I'm done
For you suckers that tried to convice me I'm less than
And conspired against me, you left me to die
Suffocated by thoughts and regression
With this chip on my shoulder
If I was loaded, then I know for a fact that it wouldn't even hurt to pull it
But if I could show them how the trigger's working
At this point, they won't even be worth the bullets
Rent's due

[Hook]
Devil in me, but the rebel in me ain't got no quit
Rina said just do it your way, and you'll be ok, so I won't trip
My baby wants me to live longer than her, and dawg, I don't know how I should feel about it
How do I explain to my best friend that I left, and they've got to live without it just to live with it

That's my family, and I don't know how to deal with it
Cause they never ask me for a thing, and never bother looking at me as a meal ticket
I've been throwed off, I've been down bad
If I stay gone, I let you down
So I can't fail when I let go
Cause as much as I'll do it for-

[Verse 2]
I pledge allegiance to nothing, but promise to love everyone that I stand for
I've been down a long, long time, but never considered digging in my Jansport
I done watched friends die, lost friends, grew apart
And watched darkness like strong winds turn people I considered close friends into ghosts that I never saw again
And that's all fine because tall tales don't sell here like souls do
Think of everything Marina told you
Never said a thing, but she showed you
That's a striking resemblance to Kelsey at the moment
History bound to repeat itself
Now you stop and think of any opportunity you missed with Marina in need of help
Dwell all you want, but you see why even with such irreversible damage
She happened to manage a peace sign
Telling me bye is what she means by it
I can see why it took quite a few years to leave quietly
To breathe, finally
Relieved for you, but I grieved honestly
You believed in me each time I would have doubts
Hesitation got me second guessing all my past routes
And with you gone, if I'm being honest, Kels and Lil' Bit are all I have now
So if I'm to let everything go, let my friends know that it's for the best
If I kill myself and I stay gone, then I guess it's farewell to the flesh

[Hook]
Devil in me, but the rebel in me ain't got no quit
Rina said just do it your way, and you'll be ok, so I won't trip
My baby wants me to live longer than her, and dawg, I don't know how I should feel about it
How do I explain to my best friend that I left, and they've got to live without it just to live with it

That's my family, and I don't know how to deal with it
Cause they never ask me for a thing, and never bother looking at me as a meal ticket
I've been throwed off, I've been down bad
If I stay gone, I let you down
So I can't fail when I let go
Cause as much as I'll do it for me, I'm doing it for you now

[Outro]
Byron
I know you've been struggling
Struggling for years and years on end Against all odds, you tried to break even, to no avail
Just as young as you were wise, you feel victim ill-prepared for the evils of the world
No one taught you how to survive
So after dealing with all of this trauma, friend in, friend out
You found one to keep you company for the ride
And soon, you realized in order for you to live, you had to die, and what is meant for you will survive
You will bleed
You will find yourself again
Waiting underneath the tree you've left your demons to swing from
And after all is said and done, you will find your way home
And you will breathe