On My Own

I'm alright, I'll be fine
Trust me, I don't like the ending that I've written this time
Brand new day, daily grind
Pour another cup of sunshine in this black heart of mine

Crack a smile, shed a tear
Inching closer, ever closer to a life without fear
Open mind, open wide
Take a peek inside, maybe you'll find a reason to try

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
And no, I'm not doing this, doing this just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish the circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own

Guess I'm thinking I can self-diagnose
How the hell can an HMO know?
Call the doctor and the doctor said
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Terrified of the unknown
Unknown discomfort ahead
Sometimes, I wonder what it's like being normal

I guess there's something inside me, just not understood
Perhaps it's all within my imagination
Clock in, punch out, fade in, die out
It's just too much, I promise I am trying

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers the reality
No-oh-oh, I'm not doing this, doing this, just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own

Was I nurtured into this frame of mind?
Or is it nature that I cannot fight?
But still, I grab this pen to change my future
The past, I look for answers, nostalgia starts to blur

Nostalgia starts to blur

I'm alright, I'll be fine
Guess you gotta just believe me when I tell you this time
No control, no complains
Life is like a happy ending, it does not work that way

Oh ho oh, will you believe me now?
Crushing anxiety, it towers over reality
No-oh-oh, I'm not doing this, doing this, just to get a rouse
It's not like I chose this pain
I wish my circumstance would change
But for now, it seems like I am on my own