dream

I just had this dream
Where I was kinda happy
Would I try to sleep
Even though I can't have it

Lost all of my beams
When I was just a sad kid
Now that shit's extreme
I'm burning my skin with acid

All the way around
My mind goes up and down
Can't seem to find a way
So I balance on my own

Can I fade away
While no one is looking
Tired of visibility
And bothering other people

The only thing I do
Is being my true self and
This seems like an issue
But i know it shouldn't be though

Every time I try
To be a little better
I make someone cry
Like I'm a joy barretter

I just had this dream
Where I was kinda happy
Would I try to sleep
Even though I can't have it

Lost all of my beams
When I was just a sad kid
Now that shit's extreme
I'm burning my skin with acid

Get your shit together
And get the fuck out of my home
You think you're really clever
But your heart is made of stone

Tired of being hurt
And tired of hurting myself
I'm fucking up my health
And all cause of a pervert

I just had this dream
Where I was kinda happy
Gonna seam my self esteem
Turn to revolutionary

My mind is a palace
And I must preserve it
Gonna strengthen all my ballasts
No more sinking like I did

And then this way who knows
I finally defeat my fears
So I could move on
In my armor cladded with tears

I'm not bothered anymore
With those who wish me bad
They just have their open sore
And they're just raving mad

I just had this dream
Where I was kinda happy
Would I try to sleep
Even though I can't have it

Lost all of my beams
When I was just a sad kid
Now that shit's extreme
I'm burning my skin with acid

Do you wanna know
What has happened in that dream
Get yourself comfortable
And listen before you deem

Unlike reality
I was a happy little kid
Gave a fuck to all the shit
Cause I knew that I was lit

When I turned into a teen
Weirdly things didn't change, no
I was fucking free
And success was on my range

My love life on the go
I was never by my own, no
Friends on overflow
Won't stop calling up my phone

When I became an adult
I had the job of my dreams
Nothing was difficult
It was as happy as it seems

I died peacefully on my sleep
Went to heaven for my good deeds
No possessions left to keep
I had planted all my seeds

And then I finally woke up
Realized it was just a mean lie
Then got up to put makeup
When I just wanted to die

Wouldn't it be easier
If life could just be like that
But I think I grew up stronger
Cause I'm this artsy little brat