Forgiving

I just put this work in I see it start to work out
Burn out and I sqrt out
I look back and observe how
Fat blunts that I burn down filled with that concerned loud
I just metamorphosis so that is what you heard now
Remember having no hope
Got kicked out of apartment
Remember having no hoes
They played me like a target
Remained in spite of hardships
Get it on just like I'm Marvin
Pulled strings like a guitar kid
So they claimed me an artist
Let's get it
Yeah this love in readmission
But I'm as cold as county jails it redefine the mission
Can't paint it real as this shit is so I apply the vision
See I was fighting demons so they kept me from ambitions yeah let's get it
What a life I'm living so full of contradiction
Had to nearly end it just to really face existence
But I ain't had a day off and I still feel resistance
If god is really there then I hope he is forgiving
Switched my intent I lost all my innocence
Sinning led to sentencing and I can't live out in a pin
Fixed upon win the focus somewhat menacing
My intent comes with vividness
You would've thought the kid was sick
Real shit
Yeah was down to my ribs
Could barely even lift
I was hoping that was it
I was on an ego trip thinking really I ain't shit
But was tripping on a whim took some pain to get like this
So this aftermath trama back to back
Why I'm passing gas real stanky shit
Like it need a bath but give it wraps
Trekking on despite of past
Pressure gone with time at last
I break the mold then fade to black
Letting go won't make it back won't take it back
What a life I'm living so full of contradiction
Had to nearly end it just to really face existence
But I ain't had a day off and I still feel resistance
If god is really there then I hope he is forgiving