Kool-Aid

[Verse 1]
Empty my cup just to refill it
Never good at saying what I mean
Pour out the Kool-Aid and I'll drink it
Can you feel it coursing through my veins?

[Chorus]
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
It's not what I want

[Verse 2]
Drawing a line straight through my thoughts
Pull out the knife and clean it off
Surrender to the fear that lives inside me
Stare into to the mirror and meet my shame

[Chorus]
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
Just sometimes
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
It's not what I want
It's not what I want