If I Hadn't Met You

If I hadn't met you
Would I be all alone?
Hiding in my bedroom
Living life through a phone

I'm scared of everything and everyone
Everything I haven't done yet
My head is in its own

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head
And out of everybody else that I met, it's you

You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go, go

If I hadn't met you
Would I lie through my teeth
Hiding all the rest
You got the best part of me

I'm scared of lettin' anybody get
Close enough to have regrets
I get if you wanna go

I was a dreamer but I hit my ceiling
I lie awake stone cold most evenings
Hit the bleachers instead of playing
'Cause I gave up when it got frustrating
Then you find someone in your bed
Who doesn't hate the things that go on in your head
And out of everybody else that I met, it's you, ooh

You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd even leave my home
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't think I'd be the same
I won't ever let you, let you go, go

I bet he's so tired of me
All the demons in my head are blinding me
There's a wall between myself and who I'm tryna be
Now I don't know how to function in society
One, two, three medications
Just so I can have a fucking normal conversation
I sleep better when I've been sedated
I'm scared of everybody else and I hate it

You, if I didn't have you
I don't (I don't) think I'd even leave my home (my home)
Wouldn't have no place to go, go
You, if I didn't have you
I don't (I don't) think I'd be the same
I won't (I won't) ever let you, let you go, go, oh