Chained

It started out slow
And then the floodgates opened
How was I supposed to know
What this sadness had brought me
In the water I was swept away
Like a sailboat in a tidal wave
All I see is the light above me
Now i'm sinking so deep so slowly

Will I believe in myself when i'm falling
Will you break my wings when i'm learning to fly and
I'm trying to break away break away break away from you
I'm trying to hold my breath when I feel like i'm drowning ooooohhhhh

They gave me different drugs
But they felt like pick me ups
I became so zombified
Just left my life behind
I wanted a hand to hold
But I could never be that bold
Anxiety consumed everything inside and made me feel cold

Breathe in, breathe out
Feel up, feel down
Head spins, spins around
Feel trapped, beat down
Cold sweats, hot mess
So tense, so stressed
I don't want to have to live like this

Don't want to medicate like that
Don't even feel like myself
But what does that feels like
Cause I haven't felt in a while
I have to pretend that i'm good
When I feel like should
Be tumbling off the end of the earth

Will I believe in myself when I'm falling
Will you break my wings when I'm learning to fly and
I'm trying to break away break away break away from you
I'm trying to hold my breath when I feel like i'm drowning ooooohhhhh