Staying Outside

Don't tell me that you love me too
Tell me what you love me for
Sorry I'm so insecure
Why you keep on asking for the truth?
You wouldn't even believe if I told you
I wanna come home but I'm staying outside
I stayed in the lobby
I couldn't get up the stairs
Smoke in the party
And it's never cigarettes
Don't be fooled by the smile
I'm thoroughly stressed
Would you expect
Anything less?
Emotionally confused and uncertain
It's not working for certain
Whenever I'm hurting you're hurting
I don't wanna be that burden on you
I'm not one person
I got several versions
So who you know depends on the version I choose
Open the cupboard
Which am I picking today
I stay sugar-coating
And I don't cut to the chase
It's straight from the bottle
Oh there's no cups in the place
Don't tell me what you love me for
Tell me if you love me too
Sorry that I'm so confused