DRAMATIST (feat. Tyler Dennen & Sworn In)

It's so easy to say one thing and then do another
I guess I have a tendency to see the best in others

Each vice leads me just to overthink
but I can't seem to rewrite the script
The root of my own problems is me

If you cut me deep, I'd smile and sew myself a mend
if it's what it took to keep you as a friend

If we felt the vacancy, and you still pulled me close
I'd never loosen my hold, because I can't say "no"

I'm consciously neglecting my true intentions
Acknowledging my problems but never giving them my full attention

I'm just a dramatist

No stagehands
it's all just me
Orchestrating my own misery

Act one
Get my hopes up

Act two
Let my guard down
Become too self-aware
Cue anxiety
and watch me drown

Everyone makes it seem like this should be a quick fix
And I'm just the hand that folds my own self-detriment
Took what I thought was real and made a mask
Composed an act and cast myself as
a masochistic hypochondriac

I can't cope with each persisting disorder
I think a role reversal is in order

Tried changing my ways
But the ink dried the instant
I spelled them out
Take the pen from me
Blackout each trace of a doubt

I'm a dramatist
Who doesn't want to call the shots
I'm afraid that I'll inevitably write myself off