Are You Proud of Me Now?

You've heard this all before
I'm sat still staring at paper
There's things behind the page for later

Oh, I've grown tired
Drinking senselessly and wild
I've been yearning for surprise
And now they've caught me in this chamber

There's new profanity displayed
As they pull on the lever
So they made our homes filled with deceivers

Oh, it's gone too long
The machine was built too strong
Now it seeps through my core
And keeps me held to inky craters

Make me feel alive

Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls
The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again
I reopened memories
You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
I worked hard to walk away from here
Are you proud of me now?
(We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now)
I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you here, need you here)
(Need to show you've got more work right now, work, work right now)
They want me here, they need me here
They have to show me I've got work right now

Deceived by carnal horns
Ripping organs out of the cleavers
Too soon to say I'm a believer

Oh, how I tried
To get lost when worlds collided
Find my own way once deciding to get off the ground
But you drag me down!

How’s my family? Where’s my sanity?
Better never knowing when the cavernous reality settles in
I won’t win, can’t begin to tell you everything’s a lie
And I'm a victim of insanity

Leaving me to rot
To absorb what soon is lost
Hoping immunity brings me community
Hoping on a pipedream, nothing to redeem

When they stop making me feel alive

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
(We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now)
(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
(We need you, we need you, we need you)
You've not moved on

Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls
The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again
I reopened memories
You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
I worked hard to walk away from here
Are you proud of me now?
(We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now)
I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
I played nicely for the longest time
Are you proud of me now?
(We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now)
The dark secrets have deprived me of light
And I'll find you down below!

(We want you here, need you here)
(Need to show you've got more work right now, work, work right now)
They want me here, they need me here
They have to show me I've got work right now

I paid the toll for staying dormant
By the side of the curb again
Come and flow with me
Close your eyes and you will see
He brought us all to die again
Are you proud of me now?

You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?