I’m Gonna See My Abuser Again

I'm gonna see my abuser again
Yeah
I’m gonna see my abuser again
I don't know why
I want to see my abuser again

But sometimes they're good to me
When no one else is really ever free for me
Treats me like a princess those times
When she isn’t doing too bad

They're at every party I'm invited to
Turn your back she still keeps an eye on you
My friends didn't get the memo I sent
They were at the door everywhere I went

Fake a smile til I make it out
Don't relive and don't recount
Just slide into your comfort restaurant
Look out the window for forever if you want

I don't wanna drink
I never drink
But now that I think on it
Do I wanna drink?

Yes I wanna drink
Yes I'll have a drink
It can’t possibly be
As bad as them I think