Pain Paints Paintings

LexNour pendo killed the beat

All the pain and the dead weight
That I've mastered is calling me sensei
I've been trippin' so much, I need free mind
Like the thoughts in my head are expense paid
Every time that they look me in my eyes
They see anger engulfed in a dense flame
That could burn down a city of lost souls
And then circle the earth in like ten days

You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address
(Address) i was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect
(Connect) i've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
I been there and I won't forget (Forget)
I know what it feels like to get
Shit on and get no respect (I know)
When the people you love don't believe
Until they see a check (yeah)
So I'm throwin' the peace sign
In the meantime, man, I must confess
Fuck you, man, it's no regrets

I'm off that i said that I been that
I said I was comin', I pulled right up on 'em
And now I'ma spin back (Skrrt)
I'm in emergenc-y, dispatch
So when I arrive in the room I get
Pushed to the front with no kick back, yeah
You cannot minimize every second and
Every minute I'm workin' (I'm workin')
I see the tweets, but I
Know you ain't eatin'
Because you can't eat if you chirpin'
All of the pain that I burden is one
Of a kind and two for certain three of four
The most important reasons why
My raps are sermons
Fourth, I'm learnin' to cope with the
Pain while I navigate fame
I paint these paintings painfully right
On my window pane
The blood that spills is tainted
Stained and filled with my disdain
The strokes evoke that burnin' flame
That circles earth in all my rage
And washes souls who've lost their way

You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address
(Address) i was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect
(Connect) i've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address
(Address) i was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect
(Connect) i've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets

So keep checkin'
(Please) , I cut 'em like C-sections (Facts)
I ain't fuckin' with pussies, you come out
The stomach and then it's a beheadin', yeah
We don’t relate
I’ve aborted the fake and the
Rest of you weak tenants
Get adopted or I’m drinking poison
And prayin' to God
The birth is a miscarriage, fuck
Bitch, I’m a sinner, my blood is the paint
You can get baptized
I remember the days I was nothin' and I got
'em stored in my mind like a flashdrive
Yeah i see the fear in they eyes when I
Speak, and I know as I pass by, yeah
That life is a bitch and I’m fuckin' her
Raw and it’s straight in the backside, yeah
I make a move, they checkin' me on top
So they can’t get a ahead of me
Stirrin' the pot, I'm in the stud'
Writin' a mix and I got the recipe
My pain is the source of energy
No shortcuts headed to destiny
Ain't gotta cheque, don’t even check for me
You can get lost like an identity
My thoughts roam
My GPS is the pain from the
Past that I cannot heal
And when I write these words
They drive my brain to a
Place that I cannot feel
My emotions spring then fall
The seasons change and then reveal
That all my pain was just the focus needed
Used to the steer the wheel

You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address
(Address) i was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect
(Connect) i've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets
You don't know what I been through
You couldn't even guess (Guess)
I was lost in a state of mind
You couldn't find if I gave an address
(Address) i was givin' them FaceTime
But the time faced was a non-connect
(Connect) i've been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playin' chess
Fuck you, man it's no regrets