how i feel

I cant explain
The way that i feel to you
I cant reveal the truth
But i don't know how to love you girl and
It shows when i'm sober
I wish that youd come over
So we could talk it over
Know you miss the way i'd hold ya
Shoulda listened when i told ya
My heart is getting colder
You chip away my love
I brush it off my shoulder
Didn't think that we'd be over
Everything that you did
Im a soldier
On the brink and you let the drugs control you
Affliction wings so you know im gonna soar ya
I keep my oaths like my name is Sora
They don't know all the pain that i know
See me smilin but inside im numb yeah
Cuz i dont like to talk a lot even online
I jus keep it to myself on the regular
Now you know how i think when i think at all
Wish i could take it all back since middle school
Always meant every word that i said yeah
If i could i would cry but i can't no