Legacy

I sit back with a stack of paper with a vaper, misty clouds of minty vapor
Numbers on the calculator fly around the room, they went over the radar
They keep on goin’ up like elevators
I shoulda studied more, but teachers didn’t wanna pull me through the door
Do i care anymore? I guess i don’t, i’m a rapper now, all i do is write down to mourn
I never been no motherfucker beggin’
It’s all about the legacy, i wish i could wash up a new identity to be somebody rich
What kinda fucking music should i spit to be somebody rich
Should i be shootin’ some videos puckerin' my lips
Broken promises and jealousy
It’s like we live with felonies
And this money can turn your best friend into your enemy
I’ve been lookin’ for a special melody to tell you what i got in me
And what’s inside o’ me is just a daddy with a lotta fears, I’m tryna be a better me
And mommy had to put up with some shit i never wish upon nobody
Maybe, i’ma tell you when you get a little older
And even when yo’ dad did enfold her
My kisses made her lose her composure
I’m sorry kiddies, yo daddy’s got no treasure
But once i grab the gat, they beggin’ me to come over
I’ma leave a legacy before the song is over
No, i don’t even know where you gonna go if you not with me by my side
No, please don’t let me go, i don’t wanna go
I got this legacy, i’ma give you my soul
It’s been 10 years, we had some ups and downs, yeah the rain almost got me drowned
But i swam back up and down back to the bottom
Broken bottles on the flo’, you got forgotten
Yeah these thoughts i had to block ‘em and these demons, had to shoot ‘em
I fucking had to clear the rumors
I had a headache but it wasn’t a tumor
More like a fuckin’ hangover, you lost yo’ sense of humor
Felt like you was a roomer
In yo’ own flat, lonely, weepin’ in a cold pad
Puttin’ on yo’ make up staring at the mirror, you were so sad
You was melting down, while i was texting another chick
I shoulda put the phone down
But i couldn’t, you wish i coulda kissed you but i couldn’t
I bet you wish you coulda shot me if you had a bullet
A finger on the trigger, i know you wouldn’t be afraid
To pull it if you had to pull it, would ya
Would i be a cheater
No i guess you was so fucking bitter, god i was a fucking quitter
And you shoulda been the one who had the glitter
I bet you woulda skittered if you didn’t care a lot about me
And the way i’ve treated you
Was just a piss-take, and i wanted to keep that a secret
I didn’t want anybody to know we had a weakness
My little Venus, how could there be this gap between us?
You got me speechless, and this overdose of yo’ sweetness
Got me thinkin', i was so much in love
I couldn’t mess everything up, i couldn’t stand to see you weep
You couldn’t sleep, coz i was a ghost-lover but our relationship could not be over
I stumbled over pictures of us in Miami
It got me in a manic state, i couldn’t breathe, so much panic
You were smiling, i was smiling
We were smiling and you and me seemed so organic