On My Own

I said, why don't I feel like I'm enough
Why the fuck life got to be so tough
Don't know how many times I should've
Ended it
Looked at you so many times, but I pretended that
I was fine
On my own
All the scars on my wrists that I've shown
People don't know the pain that I've felt
Coulda departed so many times
But I didn't wanna promote all their fucking lies
Saying I was fine when I wasn't
Saying that I'd be on my grind, I don't show it
Saying I be at my best when I couldn't
Saying I was mentally stable, I don't know it
What the fuck do I have to do to prove it?
That I wasn't fine
All on my own
The pressure takin' over me on my own
I been on the move, been on the go (go)
Don't smile, unless it's fake (fake)
Loving myself that's a mistake (mistake)
Didn't know what love was till it was shown to me
That time I thought I could trust it
Stab me in the back, fuck I hate it (fuck I hate it)
No one around can debate it (can debate it)
You want my heart, to break it (to break it)
You want my life then take it (then take it)
Yeah
Ain't no one here to forsake it (forsake it)
Gave you my heart, and you broke it (and you broke it)
Now it's time for me to go back home and then provoke it
Tore me up to shreds, now there's a devil sleeping in this bed (In this bed)
Why don't I feel like enough?
Why the fuck life got to be so tough?
Don't know how many times I should've
ended it
Looked at you so many times, but I pretended that
I was fine
On my own
All the scars on my wrists that I've shown
I said, why don't I feel like I'm enough?
Why the fuck life got to be so tough?
Don't know how many times I should've
ended it
Looked at you so many times, but I pretended that
I was fine
On my own
All the scars on my wrists that I've shown
People don't know the pain that I've felt
Coulda departed so many times
But I didn't wanna promote all their fucking lies
Saying I was fine when I wasn't
Saying that I'd be on my grind, I don't show it
Saying I be at my best when I couldn't
Saying I was mentally stable, I don't know it
What the fuck do I have to do to prove it?
That I wasn't fine
All on my own
The pressure takin' over me
On my own