the confusion of being human

[Mai]
... What do you think... "trust" means to you?

[Ritchy]
If you want an honest answer...
... I don't know anymore
Many think it's the ability to share secrets with as much privacy as possible...
Some see it as confidence in each other...
Others may look at it as a tool-
To gain new favors, while discarding old ones
The definition grew more convoluted, as time went on
And I'm lost... for what to even make of it

[Mai]
And...
What if I told you that "trust" can also mean hope?

[Ritchy]
I'd call you crazy, of course...
... But I know that what you're saying is true
You ever think they may be misguided...
... for holding on to that much hope?

[Mai]
Obviously not

[Ritchy]
And why's that...?

[Mai]
Because I know they're trying
If not for themselves...
... then for you, as well

[Ritchy]
Hm
... And what if that hope was built upon years of a flawed structure?
Like... if they had breached that trust...
... but they had been breaching for years...
What then...?

[Mai]
I'd... be upset
This can't be avoided, unfortunately...
Best thing you could do is to let go for the moment...

[Ritchy]
... It still hurts, though
I feel like I can't let go of something that's been in my life for that long
I feel like...
This could also be the reason... That I refuse to believe that things turned out the way they did
It's moments like these where I hate myself for not being able to accept the changes of the world around me

[Mai]
Then...
You could try accepting yourself... for who you are

[Ritchy]
Huh?

[Mai]
Before you can find acceptance elsewhere, you must look within and love yourself

[Ritchy]
... And if I can't?
If this hatred still resides...

[Mai]
Then this won't be the last time we talk
I know your journey is far from over
You're not as weak as you say you are...
But even I see how exhausted you've become from this dehumanization
You'll find me again...
... and I will be more than happy to help you

[Ritchy]
... I hope someday you will