Some Days I Load My Gun

Some days I load my .22
But I don't want to give up on you
Sweet people in my life
I don't wanna make anyone cry

But some days I load my gun

Some days I load my .38
Crack a beer and contemplate
It's not that I want to die
It just gets so old staying alive

And on the bad days
I chamber a round in my 12-gauge
Pen my apologies
And picture my mother's face

Some days I load that gun
Some days I load that gun

(Is there anyone?)