Nine Months

Nine months ago today
You ended our love
Breaking my heart in two
Telling me a lot of lies right before you broke me
Making me wonder was our love even true?

Now nine months later I'm partly stuck on you
Even though you moved on so fast
You ruined my trust in guys
And ruined my reputation
But what did you gain?

People told me you were a mistake
They warned me our love wasn't real
But I pushed them out
I believed your heart was true
But if I knew then what I do now
On this day nine months ago
You wouldn't have torn my heart in two

Nine months is what it's been
Since I saw the real you
Since I became the ex for you,
When for the past nine months I tried to get you back
Because a part of me was scared of what would happen next
Making me wonder what I would do without you

Turns out it wasn't me who got a ruined reputation
It was all on you
You tried to your protect reputation
When all it did was show everyone who you really are

People told me you were a mistake
They warned me our love wasn't real
But I pushed them out
I believed your heart was true
But if I saw then what I do now
On this day nine months ago
You would not have torn my heart in two

Nine months is what it's been
Since I saw the real you
Since I became the ex for you,
When for the past nine months I tried to get you back
Because a part of me was scared of what would happen next
Making me wonder what I would do without you

My hate for you now fuels me in whatever sports I do
I play sports better because of my disgust towards you
I use that anger to fuel me to show who's boss,
Whether on the field or court, or whether in the classroom
My disgust towards you helps me get my anger out

At times during these past nine months, my heart felt it would never be over you
Like when we started talking again it made me feel the need for you
No matter what you did those past nine months, I felt empty without you
But know I know that without you I can be who I am now and not ask myself what does he want me to do?

Nine months is what it's been
Since I saw the real you
Since I became the ex for you,
When for the past nine months I tried to get you back
Because a part of me was scared of what would happen next
Making me wonder what I would do without you

You may have broken my heart in two, but it healed without the need for you
My heart has moved on, and I don't need you
Sure, we may still talk but I don't need you as my boyfriend because I'm moving on
So this day nine months ago
Helped made me realize I'm better off without you