Epilogo

What in the world have I done to my poor child?
Silently I feel her breath running
Warm and softly across my chest
And I try to understand my misery
Do I owe you this much?
(Hate me, leave me, lock me)
And I cry, 'cause I tried
Now I plead my sanity to God
(Hate me, leave me, kill me)
In her name, I didn't hesitate
Oh dear Lord, please take my life
Bitter oblivion awaits at the end
(awaits at the end)
Where thousands of images
Are floating inside my head
The harder I'm struggling
The deeper I'm falling
Forgive me daughter
My demons have finally aroused!
As I sink into the mist, I can feel my spirit
Hoping for her to understand
Finally walk out through that door
Walking blind across that corridor
There was no escape...
Silent, I walk away, feared to serve her wicked grin
I'm rotting in my darkest sin
Silent, I run away, close beyond the frontal gate
Worry not, oblivion awaits
Take my life, I'm drowning in despair
And must now take my own bail
I disbelieve the pandemonium I have unleashed
Hear my lady madness' prayer: I'm missing you in hell
There's no escape for you
Oh, can't you listen to the bell?
Why can't I see the light?
Why can't I be a man?
Was I just meant to serve your wicked humor?
Please tell me God!
Is there a path to life?
Is there a path to follow you?
Betrayal was the spit I got from you
By living this duel!
(Grab a pen to write a goodbye kiss to you)
My beautiful and young daughter Sophia
(Always gave me pride)
Or should I call you Lillian, I don't know anymore...
(Wish to see you later on, though)
All I want is never to hurt you again
Time, slowly fading
Lost, I'm consumed by hatred!
Hate, always by my side
Death, this will be the end!
Her, as I will remember
Mine, she will always be!
Nothing, don't tell me now
I vanish in the air!
Take a handful, swallow it all
Let the reaper make its call
I'm done with praying, done with trying
Done with crying!
The time has come to take my fall
A thin pressure calls out from my shirt
My last cigarette is left within a gird
Allow this indulgence before you face death:
Maybe you'll find your life is not as sad
Not as sad!
Now I want to live, this is my last chance
I promise I'll wake up and do what is best
New agony is burning suddenly into my chest
Can't take it no more, I'm lying to rest
I'm finally dying, though now I was fighting
It wasn't my own to decide
It's my time to say goodbye
Bitter oblivion awaits at the end
(Awaits at the end)
And the pain's getting deeper
With each given step
I'm wandering with no stars
To guide through my way
Carrying the weight of my life
These binding chains...