Oath

See, the thing is
When I said I loved you I meant it
I always have and I always will
I can't bear to watch you leave
This fucking pain is tearing me apart

Is this the way we planned to go out?
The way this was all meant to be?

You never even said goodbye

Have I forgotten how to swim?
Because I find myself drowning in my dreams
I'm struggling to breathe
And I just find it hard to see

This regret weighs me down
Like an anchor to a sinking ship
It feels so much heavier now
Than everything already is

Just one more time, teach me how to love again
Just one more time, put your arms around me again

Before you fade off as a memory
Bitter sweet and cold
Sleep was something of the past

My eyes could never lock shut
With you screaming in my head
Telling me to let you go
But I can’t, I'm bonded by an oath
And I know I speak for us both
So tell me how do I go to sleep again
When even with sleep, I have nothing to gain

I'll always hold this grudge upon myself
Being so blind and morally inclined
The only regret I have in this life
And maybe next one in time

All I could do now, is to hold you up high and proud
With your hands wrapped around his body
And your heart, stuck in the love we found