Figuring It Out For Myself (Trying Again)

[Verse 1]
I don't simply carry it with me
I'd be glad to bear the weight
Not have to learn that there are things worth ending
And that there is no prize for pain

[Refrain]
I try to stand and face it
I try to put it down
And it almost works but it always falls apart
The minute anyone else is around
Woah-oh-oh

[Verse 2]
It is a fly in my drink
A fucking knife in my guts
Suddenly I feel like a whole different person
I do not know them, and I'm very very scared

[Refrain]
I cannot do the thing I do
And for the first time I am completely unprepared
Woah-oh-oh

[Transition]
I've been denied the right to put my hеad down and work
I am what I have made, and what I've madе fucking hurts

[Bridge]
Fucking sedate me
Better yet, put me down
I'm never quite there, but I'm always coming around
Coming around
Either tell it to me straight or [?]
There is a hole in me and it's getting harder and harder to hide
Harder to hide

[Outro]
I'm repeating words I never thought I'd say
All things considered, I'm doing great
All things considered, I'm--