I Don't Wanna Be Awake

Ohhhhh, ohhh
I don't wanna be awake
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
'Cause every time I'm not asleep I feel the pain
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
Oh no
Grateful for things that I got
But I'm not proud of my spot
Lately been wondering, just trying to find a new plot
To take my mind off the clock
Been through a lot
Trauma is flooding my mind
Don't want to sit here and rot
It's like Mutombo is guarding me
Rejecting every time that I'm shooting my shot, woah
We flipping heads for the money
And we flipping tails 'cause it's funny
'Cause life is a game, no Atari
We're sorry, not sorry
It's a wild world like safari
Plain sacrifice, Kamikaze
Deep in a bottle, Bacardi
Aye, aye
Yeah, Gil ain't here to play
'Cause Gil is sick of the fake
Bitches would go around and put dirt on your name
They do it every day
What's there to say, bitch?
Get out my way, bitch
I cannot stay, bitch
People I haven't talked to in years
Came around 'cause they had to pay, bitch
I don't wanna live my life reminiscing
But I'm screaming out loud, they don't listen
What am I missing?
What am I missing?
What am I missing?
I don't wanna be awake
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
'Cause every time I'm not asleep I feel the pain
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
Oh no
Baby you know that
I done went through all the wrong crap
This is my combat
I am creating my own path
Slow down baby
It's been tough lately
Homie got to zone out, do it on the daily
Hold up, hold up, hold up
Hitting your bitch with the cobra, woah
I am so cold like the polar, woah
She give me head like a scholar, hoe
20 rounds, won't back down
Send you out, out of bounds
'Til the sun's coming down
I don't wanna be awake
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
'Cause every time I'm not asleep I feel the pain
I don't wanna, I don't wanna be awake
Oh no
Yo babe
Yeah, I'm not going to lie
It's been pretty tough out here
A lot of fake stuff going on
But you already know me
I'ma keep shit going regardless
So yeah, it's time to fuck shit up
For real, for real