Only Time Will Tell
Verse 1
It was my first time behind bars
Looking out a stone window at the stars
A few days in the parish didn’t seem so rough
But looking back now that was just a bluff
The minutes turn to hours and the hours turn to days
All I could do was reflect on my wicked ways
Every man has his weakness and solitary is mine
I can’t stand being trapped inside my solitary mind
But the time I spent there is how Graffiti was made
You can hear the darkness in my mind when it’s played
And it’s not that I was scared or afraid
But deep inside that cell I prayed
That I could escape my thoughts
Killing me off slowly like blood clots
Because my mind is a train with no destination
Steady wishing I could change the station
But I’m stuck here for the duration
Imprisoned within my own mind
Within this cell where im confined
I’m standing right behind
Blood vessels and nerves that make up the 10 foot walls
And memories that make up the bars that are my eyeballs
There’s no chance that I will escape
And with everyday I slowly suffocate
Hook
Now only time will tell
Why I’m stuck in this hell
I’m free but my mind is a cell
Wondering if ill ever be well
But only time will tell
Yea only time will tell
Why I’m under this spell
Stuck inside this mental cell
Wondering if I’ll ever be well
But only time will tell
Verse 2
Now i can’t even sleep unless I pop another pill
Each time ignoring all the brain cells they kill
Cause my insomnia is eating me alive
Day 2 day, there’s no way I’ll survive
Going through life with thesE thoughts in my head
Staring at the ceiling wishing I was dead
But no more kissing my pain with pharmaceuticals
Cause this lack of self is eating at my cuticles
And i hate to burst your pretty little bubble
But i can't live a normal life my last name means trouble
That’s why I live every minute like it’s my last
Cause I’m covered in memories of my past
And my thoughts are darker than any shadow you cast
So I suggest you don’t think fast
Cause one wrong move could take your life
My words can stick you like a knife
But i want more out of this world
Cause its currently leaving my brain swirled
Every time I close my eyes I see the darkness around me
It’s like Every one I meet is a demon tryna drown me
In the deep end of my sadness
Until depression turns to madness
Now I’m insane and I can’t grasp this
Fact that I’m just a hollow mess
Filled with emptiness
Hook
Now only time will tell
Why I’m stuck in this hell
I’m free but my mind is a cell
Wondering if ill ever be well
But only time will tell
Yea only time will tell
Why I’m under this spell
Stuck inside this mental cell
Wondering if I’ll ever be well
But only time will tell