Deep End

I'm fighting depression
I'm hoping this trauma will teach me a lesson
I'm constantly stressin
Bout how I can live and not fumble my blessings
Got pent up aggression
I really might psych out and bust Smith & Wessons
I'm constantly guessing
I'mma figure it out but just give me a second
…
I'm not for romancing, uh
I'm done with me taking them chances
Most of you bitches I use for erections
Granted. I really just went on a tangent
Focus yo self and just stick to the message
Of there being no one to help
So I, internalize all of my demons and stick to keeping problems all to myself
Assuming it help, uh
(I think I'll be okay)
Yeah uh huh Great
Leave all these people behind me, I'm keeping me first like I'm running a race
While most of these niggas stay running in place
I'm tryna stay balanced and keep up the pace
I really regret giving all of my time to you niggas cuz honestly it was a waste
Get out of my face, I do not need you
You said that you cared, but I never do see you
See that is the problem with all of these people
They promise to listen but quick to delete you
Where was you at when I was feeling lost
You left me on read cuz you ain't wanna talk
I need your attention, couldn't pay the cost
So don't be surprised when I'm outlined in chalk
I been on this road so long, my feet bleeding
I've been through the lost and found, but don't know what I'm seeking
Took so many ups and downs I don't know where my peak is
Like I'm Rodney King you can find me on the Deep End
You can see me floating all alone in the Deep End
They won't really miss me till I'm gone on the Deep End
I got no reception on my phone in the Deep End
I might have a bullet in my dome on the Deep End
The Deep End, I've been in the Deep End
Been drowning in that water, I'm way too deep to be seasick
I'm seasoned
I take a hit of kush, I'm feeling decent
I finally took control of my life and that was just recent
I can see you don't care about my issues, uh
Like toughen up nigga, here's a tissue, uh
Shit you might just be right, but a life would be slight if you never found a person that'll get you
What if shit don't work out and I'm homeless
Nah nigga fuck that I ain't folding
I got too much pride on my side just to let that shit slide, Imma show you that I'm chosen
This right here is only the tip of the pain that I showed you
I mean I've only really hit on bout half of the things I go thru.
I could vent for hours and there's still somethings I ain't told you
But Imma save that later for my songs like I'm suppose to
I told you…
I been on this road so long, my feet bleeding
I've been through the lost and found, but don't know what I'm seeking
Took so many ups and downs I don't know where my peak is
Like I'm Rodney King you can find me on the Deep End
You can see me floating all alone in the Deep End
They won't really miss me till I'm gone on the Deep End
I got no reception on my phone in the Deep End
I might have a bullet in my dome on the Deep End