Alone With You

How high can I get so I can fucking forget you
Cuz that would be the easiest thing to do
Sitting in the dark trying to find a clue
Now how can I believe you
With all the hurtful things that you fucking said
(All the hurtful things that you fucking said)
They keep rattling around up in my head
Every time I see you I just can’t crack a smile
I don’t even know how to live right now
I do know you’re alone just sitting in denial
It’s crazy I have the suicide line on speed dial
I don’t even have the luxury of using my heart less
Cuz I still have to be there for the kids so they don’t grow up to be heartless
How do I feel when I’m alone don’t drink a dime but I’m wasted
Can’t Close my eyes I can’t face it
But somehow gotta embrace it
You think I made this lightly
Like it just came out of no where but the hurt was too much yea I couldn’t bare
Saying it’s on me now that’s isn’t fair
I wish you could see what you are through the pain yea I lied to you truth is harder to explain
Now you’re someone else how the fuck do I stay
When you were so close almost threw it all away
You said you wanted my feelings out so here you are take them all now
But seems like I’m talking to my damn myself cuz you can’t hear a word out my mouth