Inner Self

I feel blood rushing through my ears
Words are creeping up my throat
Tears make me feel I'm gonna choke
But I close my eyes, keep a straight face
There's nothing more embarrassing
Than showing out how you've been feeling
And I feel like slipping out the back door
Why did I agree to be here
This can only end in tears
But I smile and wave and keep my head high
Though this place should feel like home
I'm somehow feeling all alone
Not quite young enough
To be considered sweet
Not quite old enough
to be seen as complete
So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm
Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far
Maybe all of it's in my head
Other kids can blend so well
While I just feel like I'm in hell
So why can't I seem to ever get it right
Outcast or the special one
I wish that I could just have fun
And I want to say that I don't mean to
Screw up conversation flows
But everybody but me knows
The way to be perfect in the spotlight
'Cause though this place should feel like home
I'm somehow feeling all alone
Not quite young enough
To be considered sweet
Not quite old enough
to be seen as complete
So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm
Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far
Not quite young enough
To be considered sweet
Not quite old enough
to be seen as complete
So even if I was the pinnacle of elegance and charm
Since I'm 16 my inner self won't get me that far