HIDDEN II

I look into your eyes and I feel you
I know you struggle man the weight is just building
I understand that you don't think there's a way out
Just take a second man and listen to what I'm saying now
You have a beautiful soul and if you left I swear to god I'd be the next to go
Take your life only if you can take mine with you
The price is heavier than all in which you choose to view
Unbearable is why you leave but what you leave for us to receive
Is nothing but your debt of fees of angry seeds and crying sleeps
And endlessly shattered dreams
When you decided to cut the chord
Did you even think to take into consideration how I feel
How I would feel if you just upped and left
What about the real who treated you with their respect
I know there's people hang on to past mistakes
And criticise everything you do and move you make
But you need to hang on the fears what they feed on
Watching you deteriorate is what they fiend for
But it's not all of their fault
You lie to my face and all you say is you're okay
I mean I care for you who cares if we don't talk for days
I'd be there instantly if you needed to vent your pain
Because I'd rather see you upset and crying tears
Than have to sit at your funeral and be lost for years
And explain to your family how I fucking missed it
And be ashamed to be alive without you rocking with me
Ahh, you just don't get it man
Your life and your pleasures are only in your control
The things you see, hear, smell, taste and feel are in your control
The way you live, the way you love in your control

Hah, In my control
You make it sound like I wanted to be fucking low
Have any sprout of hope disintegrate
Anytime I hear an ego decide to shred me to my bone
I mean there's absolutely nothing better
Waiting alone at home hoping that someone hits up my phone
When instinctively
I know they won't
They always don't but I pray just like a fucking joke
Man, I think I'm better gone
I mean I'll constantly miss you but I can't fix what's wrong
Like I can drink and get high and hide it for the moment
But later soak in my fears despite what I was hoping
I swear my family wouldn't even notice the difference
Every day we're separating increasing the distance
What are mates when you haven't seen any in ages
And what am I when I can't tell who's real and who's faking
Look at me, I'm outta luck
I don't why I'm here I struggle even getting up
So how am I ever supposed to fall in love and find a job that's satisfies me
And can steadily hold me up
To me, it sounds impossible
But you, you hold me responsible
Like I'm comfortably fine with watching my life decline
And absolutely being happy with ending my life
Fuck, I'm just sick and tired
Sick of all the times I've wasted on those who don't care
Tired cause the nights I've spent on this roof with this air
Sick and tired of all the bullshit I've been fed
I'm just looking for a way out
I wanna leave this cage that I can feel around
And if this page I turn tells me to jump and fly
Then I'm leaving tonight and you will be my last goodbye

You think that's the jump to help you fly
You think that if you try you'll cure the pain trapped inside
That your worry's leave and you refill with relief
And everyone can just move on with their life
No you pass on the pain
To the angels that pick up your shattered soul
To your family who love you and just need you home
And to everyone who knew you including me most
Fuck yo it sounds so selfish
I'm so confused on how you think this helping
I wanna see you win but all you do is refuse and limit views
The harshest thing about it is that it's self abuse
You manifest to lose
I wanna show you what it's like to happily pursue
That there are treasures in the light that are meant for you
I know you know it and covering your eyes won't hide a single thing
And when the light turns out we can still sing
And when your phones on silent it'll still ring
And yo when shit goes south we can still win
But if you leave us tonight yo that's the end of it
I know you're fucking scared
Cause I am too
But man, you know I'm always here
Even if you can't see me know it's true
So if you're ever losing faith
I promise I'll always shed light for you
I know you hear what I've been saying
But I just hope you see what's hidden too