Abhorrent Subsistance

Mutilations with a knife
Shotgun by my side
This bottle won't kill me fast enough
Misery has taken over my mind
Petrified with anguish
Of a life of repulsed disease
I live an abhorrent subsistance
I put the gun in my mouth
Pull the trigger, I'm not dead
I can't believe what I have done
I stagger around the room
Look in the mirror so I can see
I am not dead
Mutilation with a knife
Shotgun by my side
This bottle won't kill me fast enough
Misery has taken over my mind
Petrified with anguish
Of a life repulsed in disease
I live an abhorrent subsistance
I put the gun in my mouth
Pull the trigger, I'm not dead
I can't believe what I have done
Fuck it