Dear Diary

Dear Diary
I've been good lately
Think I lost my mind but it's back
Can't say it was a blast
But I'm glad I wake up daily
And I really love coffee
And I have so many dreams
That I wanna show you here
Dear Diary I've been drinking ginger tea
And I've been eating perfectly
Quit smoking but I'm confused
Why are my eyes still bruised
Oh, oh, oh
Dear Diary, I sleep with open windows
I love it when cold air blows
I'm excited all the time
But I'm just on overdrive
I wanna live and be free
But I'm feeling kinda shaky
Maybe if I take my meds
I'll see a change
But I've been taking them daily
And I still can't sleep
The air is choking me
I'm getting ear raped by the bells inside my head
And now my vision's getting blurry
Am I still here
Can you see me
I wish you did
Cause I finally found
What I've been looking for
Why did I have to break
Before I could get a hold
Cause I've been taking them daily
And I still can't sleep
The air is choking me
I'm getting ear raped by the bells inside my head
And I can't breathe
Am I even real
Oh, oh, oh
I thought there was a meaning
Behind my pain
How naive
There's nothing romantic about this
But maybe I can make it look like it