Ain't Here for Your Pleasure

Do you like to play god, hold my life in your hands
Lay me bare like the devil, tell me you understand
Watch me scurry away, like a lab rat on heat
Make your assumptions, watch the cycle repeat
And you wonder why I'm so fucking blue
All these burdens I carry, that you like to pursue
Play the scientist and check my flaws off your list
Burn holes in my spine if I try to resist

But I ain't here for your pleasure baby
I'm not here to help you feel
I refuse to keep myself on the news
Try 'n' fulfill some of your ideals

Did you go tell your ma thinking she'd see me right
Think she'd exorcise demons away from my sight
I'd be cured of all anguish and we'd marvel in the light
Praise the lord for his mercies, oh we buried her plight

But I ain't here for your pleasure baby
I'm not here to entertain
Give me space, let me live without disgrace
I can't keep fanning at your flames

I'll bite, I'll kick and I'll scream
Oh I'll fight your sweet grace till I'm blue in the face
Can't break so easily
I'm taking your doubt and I'm flushing it out

'Cause I ain't here for your pleasure baby
No I ain't here to keep you sane
And what about me, whoa and my ecstasy
No I won't take all of the blame
And I ain't here for your pleasure baby
No I ain't here just for you
Leave me be, oh let me wallow in grief
Because I, I can't move from me
No and I, I can't move from me