Not Much Left
{Verse 1: J-Formz]
Man, I'm torn, because I'm grateful for the talent I got
On the other hand, I feel like I took a challenge and flopped
Got 50 fans, it's hard for me to argue I'm hot
The other part of me feels like it's hard to argue I'm not
Felt like I wanted you to know just why I'm losin my focus
Cause I was startin to notice that I was goin unnoticed
So, fuck it all, ain't wanna speak this pain out loud
And I ain't writin a song, son, I don't wanna feel proud
Was takin drugs and complainin, youd' think I softened myself
But I think I'm harder now, for not offin myself
Maybe I just cried wolf like one time too much
Cause I just ain't know how to deal with shit when times got tough
It's like my mind got stuck, and I just hope there's a reason
For all the shit that I'm sayin and the fact that I'm breathin
I put my pain on display, and let your eyes in my biz
Can only hope, when I'm gone, they recognize what I did
Can I live?
[Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain]
Never sugar coat it when I hand it to the youth
Fell from all over the world and always landed in the booth
I hold music in such a high regard that, to this day, I still feel like it's destiny
And to these fans that I once gave my life for, I gotta tell you, that there's not much left of me
Yeah, and not that it's growin old
But, years of bearin my soul have taken its toll
[verse 2: J-Formz]
I'm frustrated, why I'm makin somethin new for them?
When they ain't hear the old shit yet, that's new to them...
They claim that they love me, but they ain't listenin close
Askin me questions, if you'd listen to my music, you'd know
Ain't hidin nothin, most people's whole lives, they've been frontin
And so the effort I give, you'd think, gotta be worth somethin
I'm just blurtin out my flaws as they come when I spit
Trustin I made the game better when I'm done with this shit
Wishin they'd hear me the way I hear myself
But if they don't, I won't change and go and be someone else
How could you stand yourself runnin around bein fake?
I can't sleep, and yet, I'm havin nightmares when I'm awake
And so I...
[Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain]
[Verse 3: J-Formz]
Therapy don't work for me, son, I don't need to talk
I know what I need to do, just gotta get up, and walk
I wanna be done with the talkin, it never stops in my head
Got this assumption that maybe it'll stop when I'm dead
I swear, sometimes I hate this place and I'm scared
Where's my parents apology for fuckin bringin me here?
Cause, son, it hurts when the rain falls on my skin
A victory is a loss for me, I never could win
I got a splinter in my mind that gets infected with time
I keep a record of it playin over beats when I rhyme
This weight on my shoulders gets heavier as I get older
Until the day that time defeats me and my name's forever over
I put in work so you remember me
To some people, I don't exist, and to some, I'm just a memory
But, guess my window of opportunity shrank
And though I'm grateful, I ain't got that many fans to thank
That's why I...
[Chorus: J-Formz & sample from Joe Budden - Unnecessary Pain]