Disapointed

i'm disapointed i'm feeling
tired and grumpy and all i see
is everyone's smile and them laughing
and chatting and all i do is just
sit and i was quiet

i use to be
a girl who liked being a little by herself
and now i some reason love to be with a crowd
and today i felt so bad felt a feeling so dark
got mixed up in emotions

when the family talked to me
i didn't know how to react cause
of what i was feeling inside
felt i was fading a bit
felt as if i was going to cry

family make me feel cunferdale
and i make them feel a little different
everytime i am there to see them
i'm always changing and i'm always in a mood
they don't know about or understand

i'm disapointed cause i couldn't cope with people being happy around me all i could do was feel sad and mad and felt a little confused i was feeling like the wall fell on my head and i was dead and at the time i couldn't bearly stand being in a room full i was so confused and unsure i didn't know how to react
i felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out

the girl i use to be was so quiet
i use to love laughing for the soul
and now all i am is feeling bad
angry tired mad and disapointed

all i want is me to just grow up
and take no stress in my life
i'm so disapointed in myself today
i felt as if the wall had knocked me down
and i was a completly different person
i am so confused i was about to cry
i was so disapointed
and now i bearly can stand myself

the girl i used to be was so quiet
so true to herself of what she wanted to be
as she grown up..love family love friends just a little too much all at once happing
and i couldn't stand being in a room so full
felt as if i'd beening pushed to the limit i can't stand
felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out

it all started friday 24th of december
and all i am feeling is disapointed
its completly made me feel disapointed
how can i be this way at such a wonderful timeof year.