Bonfire

If this the realest thing I wrote, then let the real hear it
If it falls in death's ears I pray I won't go near it
I lit a bonfire where my thoughts become ignited
I'm burning down everything the ashes wont hide it
If I get burnt too, my ego accepts it
If it strips everything let my soul bare it naked
So light it up (light it up), light it up (light it up)
Bonfire (light it up), light it up
Forty seven hours, since I've been conscious
No sleep in the kingdom, my thoughts just be wilding
Insomnia, can barely keep my eyes closed
Mental state is dark and my body feeling cold
Truth be told, this pressure is heavy
I sat back to wait, so this weight I have to carry
My hoodie is up, peripheral is scary
Seeing things that's not there, Lord please help me
Depression is crazy, it darkens my days
While y'all in the trenches, I'm digging my grave
Some say I'm brave, to talk about my struggles
While others feel like they can use it for trouble
Use it against me, nah it won't prosper
It's my testimony, it won't change my posture
An everlasting battle, me versus me
There could only be one, the other will be free
If this the realest thing I wrote, then let the real hear it
If it falls in death's ears I pray I won't go near it
I lit a bonfire where my thoughts become ignited
I'm burning down everything the ashes wont hide it
If I get burnt too, my ego accepts it
If it strips everything let my soul bare it naked
So light it up (light it up), light it up (light it up)
Bonfire (light it up), light it up
Let's begin, when I was ten
Or when I was nine when I penned my first rhyme
Seven years later who knew at that time?
Sixteen spitting sixteen's with a right mind
Fifteen more, still in that position
Rocking every stage unashamed I'm a Christian
Ok wait a minute, it's time to subtract
Take nine years away when I faded to black
So as years go by, I sat on the sidelines
Hard to remember who seen if I was alright
Who checked on Preach? Who said they still got him?
Who's still in reach? Guess I am forgotten
Now Jay step back in the light and still in his prime
And I appear in front of my peers taking what's mine
With a clear mind, I hold no hatred in mind
But I'm burning down this pride, cause tonight is must die
If this the realest thing I wrote, then let the real hear it
If it falls in death's ears I pray I won't go near it
I lit a bonfire where my thoughts become ignited
I'm burning down everything the ashes wont hide it
If I get burnt too, my ego accepts it
If it strips everything let my soul bare it naked
So light it up (light it up), light it up (light it up)
Bonfire (light it up), light it up
Remember how you said it was you and me?
In the end, it was you who ruined me
You celebrated my eulogy
They told me not to sweat her, had my heart in a Coogi
Showed me different colors, hid behind the shade
You're here than you not, the silly games we played
It's hard to guess your moves, tired of these charades
You called it playing victim, I was hiding my rage
I'm burning the stage, go on and take a bow
Round of applause as flames engulf the aisles
So light it up (light it up), break a leg (light it up)
Ash to ashes (light it up), this love is dead
This bitterness almost had me die alone
Years later, I found love in a haven home
In a safer zone, boy how these tables turn
Here's my hero walk away as the place burns
If this the realest thing I wrote, then let the real hear it
If it falls in death's ears I pray I won't go near it
I lit a bonfire where my thoughts become ignited
I'm burning down everything the ashes wont hide it
If I get burnt too, my ego accepts it
If it strips everything let my soul bare it naked
So light it up (light it up), light it up (light it up)
Bonfire (light it up), light it up